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Tuesday, February 13, 2007
sad memories...

today after school and cca i came back home..and then went for a wake[some complicated relationship with the deceased]. when i gt there and went thru the procedure , it reminded me of the sad memories i had when my grand ma passed away. i remember last year i was at moe exhibition being like a spokesperson of the sch...then jie kept calling me but i refused to answer thinking its not important. till the 3rd call she made i went behind the boards and answered the call...she sounded like she was crying...she said' grandma stopped breathing we are rushing home now..can u make it!!' i was super shocked frighten and just speechless..all i could think was to cab home immediately... i left yiggie to do the job and rushed out to grab a cab....super bad, luck no cab..finally i gt 1 and rushed home.. this was the tragic moment i rushed in to my grandma's rm seeing her lying there and my aunt and cousins cryin at the side, i just couldn't stop my tears from rolling...i couldn't believe and kept asking my sis the same ques ' is it over...isit..is she dead alrdy...' i was really troubled then. after tat we started preparing for the funeral...i was quite down..but jie and my cousins were there to cheer me up.. i regretted so much..i didn't greet her every morning, didn't took time to spend time with her, and when she left, i regret it.. am i an idiot or wad... i miss her so much`=(

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